||[Feb. 16th, 2006|12:47 am]
I know I have not been here to udate in awhile but things have been going a little crazy for me right now. Classes are going well. I am taking 5 this semester. Foreinsc Psychology, Family Psychology and Family Therapy, Social Psychology, Blues.Jazz.Gospel.and Ragtime, and also Into.to Social Work.
I am still going to therapy. I feel that I should no longer be ther, but of course my therapist has other ideas about that. I don't mind going because it gives me a chance to get things off my chest, but I hate the fact that she is always trying to get me to tell others what is going on in my life, that is something that I am not able to do right now. I am not even sure if I ever will. I know that I need to be giving this a little more effort, but things are so scary for me right now. I am trying to get a grip on this eating disorder that I love so much, I have dealt with it so long that I can't see myself anytoher place you know? I do not fall into that catagory of you typical person with Anorexia, but all of the etest and my doctors tell me diffrent, I guess I will not believe it until I am in a hospial some where for passing out and to be honest that will not bother me a bit, then may be that will get me to understand that I am doing something damaging to my body, because right now I just don't understand what the fusss is about, if I decide that I do not want to eat anything for a few days. I am not harming anyone.
Well I am going to get some reading done